life without my darling-day 17

Day 17..
I cried again.
how can it be..

argh.
i miss you more and more.
i'm floating in mid air for these 2 and a half weeks. trying to figure out what should i do

1 question floating in my mind.
"do you still want to be with me?"
I dunno.
I miss you alot.
But
I have to stop smsing u
disturbing you.
cause i'm useless
pathetic lonely freak now.
how do i stand up.
with my broken heart i feel like lying down.

upon thinking of you. i still can't forget about you.
I love you.
i panic each day.
Its time
Its time

Time to let everything go.
Time to take the complete belief that my love is crap.
Time....
Time....

i'm tired again, can't sleep again.
better force myself.
force!

Love ya always.
Laogong.